i'm sorry. i keep on repeating the same trend over and over again here in my blog.
I understand that some feelings are best kept because as much as I would like to blog about things, I have to be honest. I am drag back to square one. who am I kidding?it will never go away. I now have a diary, so my despair, and frusrations are meant to be kept, and i'll keep it safe and closest to the heart.

so back to blogging about daily activities it is.

I am in waterford, perhaps not being productive as I ought to be. finals is now 9 weeks and counting. aint it scary how time flies. it makes you miss those days. friends, and family. i think i miss them ever day. they are my daily dose of sanity, and of course, what keeps me going.

i am a hippo. i have no discipline. i am not driven. i am extremely introverted these days. i forget how to start a conversation. i lack the interest to sustain one. i wish there is that white clowd you see in comics. just read my thoughts. out loud. i think it's just me. i shy back to my comfort space. i detest changes. so i am struggling to stay in one place. geddit?

i'll be a doctor, 6 months from now. and I'll let you know when it is perhaps the safest time, to come to me, because with my level of knowledge and skills, I could offer nothing but harm.:)

it's going to be almost 2 years in 3 weeks time.
but it feels so long, so so long, that he is no longer here in our lives.
I still miss him as much as I did before, perhaps so much more as time goes.

sometimes i'd pretend that he went on a long journey,
and somedays I have this unrealistic hope that one day, I will see him again.
it might take a lifetime, or it might be sooner than expectd,
but Insya Allah I will get there.
I hold on to that tiny little hope, and keep it close to this tiny little heart.

you're beautiful

right now, this is my guilty pleasure.after all entertainment is something universal right. trust me, korean dramas annoys me to death. but this one is too cute to resist.:)

some strive to be different, to make a difference, to be not be part of what is different. the list goes on, but in the end the one who's missing out on things is you yourself. you would sacrifice teeny bits of yourself until one day you'd come to realize the you today are actually fractions of ppl you have met along the way.

A friend.are definetly not the ones I find so hard to keep.

I am a bit suffocated and repelled by such advances. I am not sending you signals, so stop acting like we're in the middle of a courting process. seeing you now just makes me want to run a mile further away. :(

You shouldn't give up.
Fight for yourself and
who you are. You've got
to go through the worst
times in life to get the best.