Home's face, how it ages when you're away

in 5 more minutes, we will be reaching the end of 2008. it has been a tough year. especially when you're on your own, and the one who could ever truly understand is you. throughout this year, I wanted someone, a friend, so badly, to hold my hand and be there for me. I didn't want to feel alone.but this year, I felt most alone.

it was the year I was up for bungee jumping, or anything height-related.just let it all out you know?.

because it was a whole year without him.

and here's to another year and I hope I am strong enough.

and I will be.

i have been eating like.. i think it doesnt do justice if I used the word hippo anymore!why is it so hard to diet?I am turning 24 in perhaps 3 weeks time and help me, I'm still fat. yes, I'd like to be stick thin. at least even for a day. maybe I'll put in serious effort for 2009, because guess what, the following year I wouldnt want to be 25, and yes,still fat.

updates. I have watched twilight and no suprise, I didnt like it. I think some things are better left to the imagination. not that the series was anything much pon. I think I only like the first half of the first book, and the idea of edward cullen. and they had to destroy even him by having robert play the role of edward cullen. he's such a pretty boy, and my edward is not suppose to be that type! and the girl who played bella was, well annoying as well. partly because I've seen her in a horror movie, and she was horrible,acting-wise. so when she was in twilight it kind of kill the whole anticipation of waiting for the movie itself. I kind of get all the hype about harry potter but I think the whole vampire-human idea has been used so many times, and the story line is just uninteresting. I still do like vampires, and the idea of them as boyfriends. if only.

i love chicken, chicken and chicken. no matter in what kind of form it's served. except for kfc. i can only eat klia's kfcccc. :D

this is jasmine.:) well, excuse my medusa looking hair.heh.
she's beautiful, and I feel old. I am an aunt to 4 kids already!:P

I think this year, this month, I cried the most because the truth is I really miss him. and I really want to see him and hear his voice. and I really want to wake up the next morning and wake up to a very long bad dream.and I would call home and he'd answer and say "in some foreign language he makes up, achi puteh, cakap laju sangat papa tak faham..and he goes yes my achi puteh, how are you?". :,(

Your heart is an empty home-dcfc

Burn it down till the embers smoke on the ground
And start new when your heart is an empty room
With walls of the deepest blue

Home's face: how it ages when you're away
Spring blooms and you find the love that's true
But you don't know what now to do
Cause the chase is all you know
And she stopped running months ago

And all you see is where else you could be When you're at home
And out on the street Are so many possibilities to not be alone

The flames and smoke climbed out of every window
And disappeared with everything that you held dear <----------
But you shed not a single tear for the things that you didn't need
Cause you knew you were finally free


Cause all you see is where else you could be, When you're at home
Out on the street are so many possibilities to not be alone
And all you see is where else you could be,
when you're at home,
There on the street,
are so many possibilities to not be alone

i am a happy person todayyyy.:)

i have had a very tiring 5 weeks. i mean routines exhaust and my happy doses are wearing off. yes, I complain. a lot.and that would be the main reason why i blog.

I have started my paeds rotations. I have plenty to study considering my last-minute habit. I never learn. I am motivated one day, but my favourite phrase would still be 'MONDAY is the best day to start everything!' and come monday, I am 'all right, I can't believe I took so long to stay this motivated' and by wednesday I'd settle to my old habit. which involves overdosing myself with caffeine, watching random movies on surfthechannel, binge eating, and well, not studying. I am not driven to do anything, which sometimes worries me(hah!).

on the happier note, my sister and abg nik is expecting their baby girl in the next 2/3 days!I can't believe it is going to be that soon and that there's going to be an additional cheeky one to the three kiddos!this must be the cheekiest of them all considering how much havoc she has created before her arrival!I can't wait!i just wishe I didnt have this stupid exam to sit so I can just take a few days off to be there!sigh. but patience is virtue no? plus I've already book my tickets to manchester on the 20th. my mum would be coming dwn as well!so many happy things to look forward too!:DD