my fingers smells of chicken

zara is such a doll la. i think ina has been blessed with beautiful kids. but then again, i think when i think of a person who's murah rezeki, she comes close to the definition. I wish I was, but we both know I'm not really, with very few exceptions.


what's else is new?oh I joined a gym and shall be working my butt off later this evening. i can't wait! after watching angie in WANTED, I am more motivated to loose weight. though I personally think joining the gym helped more in boosting my hunger. maybe because I now have something to fall back to. but the place looks nice. lets hope it would be able to hold my interest for long. the thing about me is that I am lazy. but let's pretend you don't already know that either.

I am meeting friends in a few more hours!:)

you remind me of home.

I've been back since last thursday.

There were so many first times, and I don't think I took it well. On my journey here, I made a promise to myself. but the moment I saw the house and the garden, everything I was holding on began to crumble. It hurted more now compared to the last time I left. I understood better over the time. acceptance was never an option or answer.


but I'm glad to be back home.yes, home sweet home.

shine on

I should be happy because I got some good gifts and passed my exams.:)

Happy Father's Day

today is the day I never thought would come so soon. It never crossed my mind I would never be able say this to you pa.

to the one who made fun of my tummy, my pimples and how fast I speak.

to the one who always wanted me to help him put the biore porepacks on.

to the one who calls me darling and aci puteh.

to the who calls me tukang urut and org gaji.

to the one who was both my bestfriend and papachi.

to the one who sees me in the way I would never see myself.

to the one who had only loved,taught and given us so much.

to the one I wished everyday was with me, and will always miss,remember and think of.

Happy Father's Day my Papachi.


You truly are and will forever be my world's greatest.and I love you so so much.


so for today, I'd leave one of the songs you used to sing in the car when we're listening to light and easy.:)

the garden you planted-Seawolf

Good Morning Dear
I hope I didnt wake you too soon
Because my mind is growing tired
Too much thinking what I should do
I picture you out there
It must be beautiful this time of year
All those East Coast leaves
Floating round like embers from burning trees
Well the weather out here is just the same
But the garden that you planted remains.
Now its only work
Each day bleeding into the next
Barely scraping by I tire myself out just so I can rest
But rest it rightly comes
And when it does I come out and go home
Because its much too quiet
Seems that Im not suited to being in love
And everyone around mes changed
But the garden that you planted remains.
I think about you
Maybe more than I should
But the smog is getting old
The drugs Im taking arent so good
So will you talk to me
Even though youve had a late night
Because I need a little help
Baby, tell me Ill be alright
Cause everything around mes changed
But the garden that you planted remains

whatever sets you apart?

isolation is never good for your mental health. that was what i got from the half an hour wait for each movies. perhaps this explains the one below? oh come on, we all have our own guilty pleasures, and for me this is one of it. I can't watch the oc or one tree hill, but this my friend, is an exception. thanks to cappie!:))okay, I admit, greek is another teenage drama, but I think what sets it apart is for you to find out.

7 days, and I'm going a bit coookooo!

can I like edward norton too?:) so besides shia, i like him and oh, james mcAvoy. though I don't like the way he looked in Wanted, plus he looks a bit weird with angelina jolie.but I still love him nonetheless.:)


I should really find a hobby rather than spend too much time at the movies. but that's considered a hobby too right?and the other goes to wasting more money on subway everyday. what ever happend to the soup diet?:D

I've decided that I love shia Labeouf. ok, this might not be the best picture of him(hee!). I have yet to watch indiana jones.I've watched the ones before, but can't quite remember what the whole thing was about remember there was a scene where they had to eat from a monkey's head.and that was it. oh and the song!how can you forget la kan.

It's funny when I'm having exams there's plenty of things to do on the net and at the movies. Now that I'm done, I'm not sure what is left for me to do. waking up at 4?done that. being a couch potato?checked.oh well, I guess I have to wait patiently for my flight back home. or maybe I could just go over to my sister's for a week. but the only thing that is holding me back is the temptation of food. I'm suppose to be on a soup diet for the next 2 weeks. I had the whole 6 months before the bet, and hoping for a miracle for these last two weeks.I would never learned my lesson. why is it soooo hard?:(


the good news is I passed my CNS module!I had it rechecked and was about to accept the fact that I might have to resit for the paper on the 24th.And luck is finally on my side this time around.I first encountered failure, and now I am freed of it. It haunted me for quite sometime and it was an unpleasent experience.but I thought I learnt from it a bit.yes, abit.

dublin weather is so so nice these days.

I am done with the exams! I screwed up a lot, and high chances of failing is almost absolute, but oh well I am glad it is over and done with! I have plenty of time to myself. me loves this!

I liked sex and the city-the movie. I could'nt have asked for a better wrapped up for the series.I thought it was more like watching the series, which is a good thing. I would'nt want it to differ too much from what kept us hooked in the first place. :)


on the other note, I am so happy for yati and fadhli!yes, finally!:D

me, msyelf and I.

today, i wonder why my heart feels so sad, and I feel disgusted beyond belief. I was never supportive and I had mean-ingly questioned your existence.

over the years, I began to despise you. it was hatred built out of anger and frustration, when deep down inside I should have known it is impossible when things are surely out of your control.

I am sorry, for my own selfishness, for not paying attention to the pleas. I should only know to well, the emptiness of being alone.

today I realize that life was never fair,and made me believe more in what I hold on to religiously. It is painful to know and watch, you being consumed by it, and we can do nothing but resolved to this.

someday, one day, I hope that things will get better for all of us. and we could share the bond I have turned my back on to and let you know that I will be there for you, like I should always have.