me, msyelf and I.

today, i wonder why my heart feels so sad, and I feel disgusted beyond belief. I was never supportive and I had mean-ingly questioned your existence.

over the years, I began to despise you. it was hatred built out of anger and frustration, when deep down inside I should have known it is impossible when things are surely out of your control.

I am sorry, for my own selfishness, for not paying attention to the pleas. I should only know to well, the emptiness of being alone.

today I realize that life was never fair,and made me believe more in what I hold on to religiously. It is painful to know and watch, you being consumed by it, and we can do nothing but resolved to this.

someday, one day, I hope that things will get better for all of us. and we could share the bond I have turned my back on to and let you know that I will be there for you, like I should always have.