pretty little things

Loving hurts.

As much as hating does.

I admit.

I am perhaps one of the most uninteresting ppl you'd ever meet.

I spent most of the days either cleaning up the hse,watching randon dramas or
Just lying on the bed staring into nothingnes.

I can do these for days.years even.

Because these are the things that makes me feel content.

Being home.enjoying its peacefulness and mamas siren once in a while.

Pa I know why you love home and being at home so much.
You'd taught us to enjoy the little things in life.

I spent half the number of years hating him.

But now I feel sorry for him.can't life be a bit kinder?.

I wish he was freed of things.things that has been haunting him for years

No ono knows because I wouldn't tell.but that doesn't mean I care less.

Sometimes when everything around you is falling apart you start missing the person who reminded you of the happy times and the last time you truly felt what love is. and he sees you in the way you or others will ever see yourself.

Of relationships and such at 1.44 am

I have to admit, at times I am a bit freaked out whether I would ever meet the right person.

or whether I would be good enough for the person I eventually like one day.

it's been almost a number of years of waiting, and tripping over a few, and still.

perhaps it is true. there's no such thing as meeting your dream guy except in your dreams.;)

random entry

Today, okay maybe yesterday marked one week I'm back home in Malaysia. and safe to say, I would officially return back to Dublin as a final med student.
Alhamdulillah, I am thankful to the One and Only.

My 4th year was a total nightmare. Came June, I had to cover what I have learnt for all the rotations I had up to date! it's been a crazy roller-coaster ride, and I had my constant mood swings.:) but when the results were out, the taste of victory never tasted as good. by the end of everything, I was mentally drained, and now finally recovered. given the number of days spent self-indulging, and bummming around.

I still need to do my electives. I know it's not compulsory for my college, but to have options to work either in Dubs/Malaysia, I guess I do need to do it anyhows. I am such a lazy cow, I should have it done back in January. But knowing me, I always(ALWAYS) leave things until the very last minute. Now it's down to Kajang/Serdang/UM. I am hoping for good news by the end of the week. fingers crossed!

I need to sort out my life. Sometimes I feel my life is such a mess. I am not driven enough. I wished things will just fall down from the sky by just snapping my fingers. but I guess in reality, that doesn't, or would never, work. the world would revolve with or without you. it's a matter of keeping up.

and I guess I might start by keeping a diary and starting my own photo album.:)