Sometimes I never quite understood.
Not even by witnessing,not even by feeling it.
Acknowledging it feels so wrong.
But it creeps slowly,like a shadow.
suffocating at first,suffocating at last.
I'd sit, stare and feel empty.
I just feel so lonely.

I would like to dissapear
for a while
because life holds nothing
only more heartache
only more dissapoinment.

And more painful to live.